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Behind the scenes of writing

I am a doctor born in 1974.

I grew up in a poor family in Osaka and was sickly from childhood.

I had a dream of becoming a doctor and overcoming incurable diseases, and worked hard at studying during my student days.

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However, due to the influence of my parents, who were members of the Soka Gakkai, and being bullied a lot, I struggled with my own identity and had dreams of becoming a beautiful girl idol. Although I am a male according to my family register, there are three genders living inside me.

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After graduating from university, I engaged in clinical practice as a surgeon and also earned a medical doctorate.

Since then, I have gained numerous clinical experiences and am proud to be able to contribute to society in various ways as a surgical specialist and general physician.

On the other hand, I couldn't give up on my dream of becoming an idol, so I started doing idol activities little by little during my university days in Osaka, and even after coming to Tokyo, I started blogging on mixi in 2007 and Ameblo in 2010.
For the past 20 years, I have paraded around Tokyo and the foothills of Mt. Fuji in beautiful anime cosplay, Gothic Lolita, and Brucella idol styles.

Climbing was perfect for thinking about the meaning of life and mission.

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Currently, I am a father who has finished raising two children, and I am also a member of the Soka Gakkai Seniors Club.

At home, I live happily with my wife.
I have received various criticisms and evaluations from people around me and the internet, but I believe that this reflects my individuality.

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If I had been healthy from childhood, if I had had reasonably good grades, if I had been raised in a reasonably wealthy and privileged family, if I had not had parents who severely spanked me, then  I wouldn't have been able to become a doctor who at least shares the pain of my patients.

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Also, if I hadn't been subjected to much violence and sexual bullying, and if I hadn't stood on the roof of a building trying to become a bird while continuing to face various hardships with many persons who return evil for good, this idol activity itself would have never existed in the first place, and I wouldn't have spent so many years engaged in intense clinical work, research, studying Buddhism, philosophy, sociology, and queer studies.

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If I had been blinded by selfish worldly interests such as money, fame, rights and interests, I would not have been able to continue disseminating scientific truth.

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Both now and in the future, I would like to use adversity as fuel and update the beliefs I have cultivated since childhood, aiming to become a more complete human being as a cultural creature born on this earth...
With this in mind, I started creating this homepage to organize the essays and papers I wrote along with my idol activities on my blog.

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Reality is harsh and nature is ruthless, but I want to look at the world with clear eyes like a girl in a sailor suit until my final moment.

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In addition, based on the truth that true happiness can only be found in knowing the truth, accepting it, and growing, I will take as a model Nichiren, who continued to preach the truth of his time for the happiness of all people until his final moments.

Even if people around the world oppose me, I will continue to spread the truth that everyone needs to know for as long as I have the ability to do so.

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I am grateful for the wonders of being alive and for the blessed nature and rich society.
And peace to you and to nature.
Thank you.

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Ameblo self-introduction article (posted on 2018-07-16) ↓
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